Reunion missed

 and I think it was better that I didn't go. I had wanted to....I knew what I wanted to wear...a jeweled colored Qipao dress ( see the photo). I've lost a lot of weight so I wanted to show it. I imagined the venue being dark like the last reunion...more cocktail like...but, had I have gone, I would have been the sore thumb and I would have been terribly self conscious . ( how is it possible they could still do that to me?) 

I have seen the photos and I can recognize maybe 3 people...I am not like these people...It's neither here nor there but I am not one with them...That makes me the freakish outsider...but that is OK with me...Can you see me in a dress like that in that group. I would be asking for snark.

I'm ok not fitting in. I march to my own drummer anyway. I would never dress down in a group setting but it appears this was the trend.

I'm just not willing to say...OK, I give up on how I look and how I live...I haven't stayed local, gotten married, had kids...